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Hip Hop’s the New WWF by Reggie Legend

Written by: on Aug 14 | Just thinking... | No Comments »

Loosely based on a once legitimate expression of prowess and entertainment, it has now became an over-exaggerated farce of its original form.  Despite how it overtly plays to the highly stimulating and foregoes content, its fan base is expanding beyond its original audience and into new legions that know nothing of its true essence.  It now thrives on drama and will manipulate and exploit its own originators for the sake of raising stock in its infamous notoriety and capitalizing on its commercialism.

No - the industry of which I speak is not the WWE (formerly the WWF); it’s Hip Hop.  Yeah, I’m on it again.  The interesting thing is that when a person criticizes something or someone, said person is automatically branded as a ‘hater’; when, in fact, this assumption couldn’t be anything further from the truth.  Some of the most fervent criticism often comes from the biggest fans.  Our parents are that way.  They see the potential we have and what we’ve been able to accomplish; but when they see that potential misused and misappropriated, the rod comes out to chasten us – to help straighten us out.

Well, my rod has been whipped out against Hip Hop for quite some time now and although I am nowhere near its parent, I am an advocate of it – grafted into its lineage by choice.  When I speak of the ills of Hip Hop, I speak as a family member affected by its current status and pained at the thought that I have to chastise or possibly abandon it.

I am affected because even at its best (anything before an overdose on drug metaphors and blatant lack of content), Hip Hop may be stifling my own growth as I seek to strengthen my relationship with God.  And as I seek to make sense of it all in my life, I also can’t help but be concerned about how it’s affecting both my own and neighboring communities.

I stopped watching wrestling a long time ago because I grew tired of the plots and twists that happened outside of the ring that distracted from and devalued what used to be enjoyable to watch in the ring.  All it took was one unique antagonist to draw a crowd and ruin the game; as his anti-hero blueprint became infringed upon and reproduced by others with an obvious malice towards their own ability for creative thought.

And as I struggle to come to terms with whether to turn my back on Hip Hop in search of my own fulfilled purpose, I can only hope that Hip Hop does the same to itself in order to rediscover what made it so great in the first place.

http://allhiphop.com/stories/editorial/archive/2008/01/08/19098595.aspx#comments
 
“The Struggle”

Kweli knew and dubbed it best –
‘Hip Hop’s the new WWF.’
Like Doug E. Fresh, it’s been beaten
and boxed into a corner.
But this isn’t about Hip Hop per say –
It’s about one fan’s flip flopped survey…
One fan who both disses and jocks the
wordplay of its top performers.

Instilled in my letters and entrenched in vents,
Rap’s a source of guilty pleasure and innocent discontent.
I’m vehemently rent between
The Rock and hard-bassed Blues.
And as it’s publicized in publications,
Rap’s republic eyes utter a guise of repugnant hatred…
As its numbest patrons snub my statements –
unable to spot that their hearts ache, too.

With my pen as a monolith
To both model and topple it,
I’ve been pinned by the dogged grip of rap music.
So like a fickle fan who’ll promptly switch
From sycophant to taunting quips…
I’ve moved from astonishment to
admonishment of its wack usage.
 
Yet despite its focal platform,
There’s a light that totally surpasses rap’s norms.
Holy Hip Hop is an active forum that’s truly redemptive.
Christian rappers are taking a stand
With christened rap words without atheist strands…
As they’re making a brand full of
Biblical base and useful deliv’rance.

But in this music business,
some say such clichés are oxymorons –
They say beats with bass debase God in distorted song.
But from laws in the Torah to Psalms,
musical praise is prevalent.
To me, it’s not Hip Hop that’s morally wrong –
Like Christianity, it only takes a few proxies
to knock its course off…
It’s those whom I squash with my forearm –
those who deface what’s at stake with decadence.

But they’re not who I’m wrestlin’ –
What I fight’s in the air and indefinite.
Within flesh’s residence, my spirit’s imprisoned
and labors to birth freedom.
Like diamond bezels and necklaces
Imbedded and bedeviled with recklessness…
Within conflicted messages, do the lyrics I
listen to favor accursed treason?
 
This is the battle I wage –
This is what rattles my cage.
Like cattle in gates, is what I’ve heard
herding me in return?
Is Holy Hip Hop a mockery?
Can I be holy and love Hip Hop honestly?!!…
Or is it all hypocrisy prompting and haunting me
merc’lessly to turn to the Word?

Psychologically, the snares and flares of the issue
Wears and tears my mental sinew.
When aware, I dare to issue challenges
for a championed cause.
But when I get hype in the stands
and toss my hat in the ring,
Every mindless fan and spineless Stan
chimes in aghast to tag the king…
Attackin’ me like gnats and fleas for a stance
that disagrees with their pantheon gods.

Whether they laugh, applaud or mock my gestures,
Not even the brashest blog will stop my efforts.
To battle man or God –
which is better for me to come out from?!!
That’s the easiest question to answer –
I may get queasy, but I’ll wreck any brandisher…
I haven’t yet met a blasphemer where
I couldn’t control the outcome.

Besides, I know what happens when
you’re at odds with the Creator.
You may gain favor, but you’ll
pay at large for it later.
Look at God and Jacob –
Israel prevailed but it cost him his swagger.
For me, Jacob wrestlin’ with God
Has the same make up as whether to heckle Hip Hop…
It wrecks my vessel as my
hip socket gets popped over the matter.

So as I ‘struggle with God’ my pain IS RAEL.
As I wrestle my flesh, what’s at stake is revealed.
Like Triple H’s appeal, can Holy Hip Hop
split me away from D (Gen) X?
Like an H3 climbs the grounds
of rough terrain’s uranium*,
Can it place me on higher grounds
from the subterranean?…
Or will it remain tough for me to reign
restrained in stints like DMX?

Until I break free of its sleeper hold,
The break I need to free my leaping soul
Is a step of faith away from keeping me
whole thanks to my favorite songs.
So if rap’s break beats and frequent tones
Are keeping me from reaping what’s sown…
I need to release what’s seeped in my mold
until my break has dawned.

‘Jacob was left there alone.  Then some man wrestled with him until the break of dawn.  When the man saw that he could not prevail over him, he struck Jacob’s hip at its socket, so that the hip socket was wrenched as they wrestled.  The man then said, “Let me go, for it is daybreak.”  But Jacob said, “I will not let you go until you bless me.”  “What is your name?” the man asked.  He answered, “Jacob.”  The man said, “You shall no longer be spoken of as Jacob, but as Israel, because you have contended with divine and human beings and have prevailed.”
– Genesis 32: 24-29

* Poet’s Prerogative:
Uranium is a naturally occurring element that can be found in low levels within all rock, soil, and water.  – wikipedia.org

© 2007 Reggie Legend
Steel Waters, Inc.
reggielegend@hotmail.com

What If Hip Hop Had a Heaven? by Reggie Legend

Written by: on May 14 | Just thinking... | No Comments »

With death seemingly lying dormant beneath the surface of Hip Hop, is there any hope in sight for the victims that lay in the aftermath of its wake? The answer, for Hip Hop artists at least, would appear to be yes. Immortalized by lyrics that stereotypically glorify death, we all but deify our cultural martyrs. And while respect is due for the talents of the slain, can it go too far?

Perhaps in an attempt to ease our grief, somewhere along the line we’ve rationalized that the tragic conditions lived (or very well depicted) by the likes of Biggie and Pac somehow grants them a free pass into heaven. In doing so, while we’ve managed to honor their memories, we simultaneously disregard and downplay the only hope of a heavenly afterlife.

But wait! Before you stone me for daring to suggest that those we’ve lost didn’t make it to heaven or being so bold as to talk about religion in Hip Hop, ask yourself this: how ritual has Hip Hop become to us? Is it not a movement that empowers the downtrodden – seen as a savior for the lives of those that cross over into its success? Is it not studied by zealots as a religious temple and revered as a platform to speak and act against social class imbalances and injustice – just as the Baptist Church was the center of the civil rights movement back in the 50’s?

Even with these similarities, we must not confuse ourselves by entertaining the soulful preservation of those who’ve been murdered in the cause. Let us not forget the history of violence that has been in the world before Hip Hop and will remain forever after; and in doing so, let us not forget that its unfounded association to our culture of music doesn’t merit God’s acceptance of those that have suffered because of it. For the heroes of Hip Hop, heaven’s gates open the same way as it does for us: through the Son of God. Otherwise, we’re all walking around with wool over our eyes in an attempt to absorb the tears that have been shed for our fallen.

If Hip Hop had a heaven,
Would B.I.G. and Pac be referenced as reverends?
Would their legacies remain reverenced as legend to their congregations?
Would they have pick-pocketed collections?
Would they have picketed their own marketed message?…
Would we flip flop between bested hymns in fierce conflagration?!!

If Hip Hop let thugs in heaven,
Would Kristoff St. John open the gates for its young and restless –
Would gun possession be exorcised and extradited?
Would pitchin’ rocks from drug professions
Be forgotten since this option was left from smug oppression?…
Since the government let it in –would they set the chips aside to tithe it?!!

If Hip Hop had layovers in heaven,
Would ‘Jay Hova’ be a less unpleasant ref’rence?
Would Holy Hip Hop be more prevalent in modern day rap?
Would a collar on Run seem as irreverent?
Could self-martyrdom from Nas’ gun have been more effective?…
What if Jay resurrected – could rap be saved if this star came back?

Would there be a difference between ‘god’ and ‘dun?’
What about Nastrodamus’ depiction as God’s son?!!
Was it all in fun – or was this part of a grander scheme?
As outlandish as this may seem to folks,
I’ve seen patterns of a meaner joke
In something we promote in homage to gangsta leans.

Though rap today has a few numero unos,
The price they pay plays to the tune of funerals.
Eulogy beats are the usual for their deadwood dogma.
To gain green funds in large profits,
The mainstream floods in false prophets…
Spreading gangrene in uncut doctrine –
deposited in coffins of embellished hood mantras.

But what if Hip Hop echoed heaven on earth?
Would New Jerus’ peruse ghetto havens first?
Could it save and reverse its romanticized condition?
Would it release the populace or keep it enslaved
With the greed of coppin’ chips, cheese and chains?…
Or is it too ashamed for how far we’ve franchised our position?

With heaven’s commongrounds on our premises,
Would we continue to walk around as our most powerful nemesis?
If we could break out of the syndicate, would its synthesis surely break down?
Would rap keep recruitin’ legionsof shootin’ demons?
If so, would it be so bad that it harbors a slew of heathens?!!…
Would Jews still lead in recoupin’ green endz with the Pearly Gates around?

If Hip Hop had heaven harnessed for a new season,
Would Common Be the constant gardener of New Eden?
Such honest guardians are few and far in between my brothers’ keep.
After all, at The Roots of our Black Stars’ depths,
Too few truly acknowledge their talents’ charged debt…
Despite immaculate concepts, they challenge God with plundering feats.

Too busy in hell’s kitchen bakin’ up fake stunts to bail out,
Hip Hop’s been placed on a hellmouth.
Even if heaven replaced it, Ma$e would still be a sellout, to say the least.
Without unleaded gas to fuel its head of steam,
Would rap exhume its unleavened recipe?…
Or is it too consumed by the commune of an un-heavenly destiny of wasted yeast?

Will Hip Hop’s soul ever rise to the occasion again –
where were you the day it died?
Is it too early to mourn – at its wake will we Rize?
Or will it be too late to realize as we writhe in the pain of its loss?
Since its soul’s been sold to the devil’s embezzled team,
Would Hip Hop even make it to heaven’s mezzanine?!!…
Will we wake from the hellish scene of this unsettled dream to take up its cross?

If heaven was a mile away and Hip Hop a close shaven second,
Which one would host the most of our jaded brethren?
Would Ghostface be a reverend to cajole the Supreme Being’s clientele?
Would the Three 6 Mafia be revealed as the mark of the beast
Or merely a market of street beefs?…
Would we finally take off its leash? – only time will tell.

If cops sprayed the booth with Eminem in it,
Since he made it in Hip Hop, could he pay Proof an eminent visit –
Or were his sentiments too vivid for the annals of Hip Hop’s preserved?
Would cats get placed in purgatory
For the graphic way they word a story
Even if it cracked the pavement andearned them glory on Hip Hop’s curve?

If Hip Hop had a mansion in heaven
Can you imagine who would staff its residence?
Big, Pac and Scott La Rock would jam its expansive measurements with a host of others.
It’d be agreed that certain sistas thought of as passionate and heaven sent
Would have fixed spots like stanchions of benevolence…
As Lisa and Aaliyah would have an outstanding presence sensed
like the ghosts of southerners.

From A to Z, martyrs for the cause who lay perished
Are amazingly fostered to belong to the same parish –
Cats like Eazy-E and Freaky Tah remain cherished like stained wood.
From Jam Master J Dilla to Big L’s insane Puns,
From Marley to a modern day marvel slain as Gaye’s son…
If music could save one – then these artists merited sainthood.

Tantalized as injured mourners,
We’ve canonized these performers.
We fantasize them reserved for the Lord since their lives weren’t crystal stairs.
Yet behind random lines lies a bigger picture.
Every time we glamorize lives, we scandalize the grand design of Christian vigor…
Without standardizing Christ as their risen center – their lives are wisps of air.

Though they live on in lyrical chapters,
They’re eternally scorned from a spiritual fracture.
Without Christ, their hereafter’s trapped in ethereal infernos.
Like blasphemy against God,
No Christ in an absentee’s heart
Is like battling against Nas –as their souls forever burn slow.

But if they knew Christ as their personal Savior,
No amount of ice could give them more versatile savor.
Despite terminal vapors – they can breathe new heir with new nostrils!
Despite the hearse and a few favors,
Despite the nicest words from eulogy prayers…
No verse renews greater than the Good News of the Gospel!

© Reggie Legend 2006
Steel Waters, Inc.
reggiegelend@hotmail.com

The Internets Stay Watching by Amadeo

Written by: on Apr 14 | Family, Just thinking... | 4 Comments »

A series of tubes

“The World Web Internets is a series of tubes (not a big truck which you just dump something into), used to transfer important information (porn) worldwide. It has, in recent years, evolved into the greatest MMORPG of all time, where players choose one of two factions and compete for either lulz or anti-lulz respectively. This of course divides into many smaller classes and such, each with their own culture, ideas, and often language. In fact, the internets is basically an electronic version of Earth–who woulda thunk it?”

Encyclopedia Dramatica
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The Primary Colors of Presidential Race Wars by Reggie Legend

Written by: on Mar 06 | Just thinking... | No Comments »

Red conservatives VS. Blue liberals.White VS. Blue collars.

Black VS. White.

Green money from inflated gas prices and lobbyists
VS. the Silver lining of change.

Red blood spilled in foreign wars
VS. Blue-blooded American pride.

Green cards VS. Red, White and Blue birth certificates.

Red Cross VS. Blue Cross Blue Shield medical care.

An economy operating in the Red VS. in the Black…

This campaign has become a virtual Rainbow Coalition of the Willing. For the sake of winning the favor of the masses, politicians are more than willing (though it remains to be seen if they’re able) to toss around these socioeconomic, cultural and political issues. Yet for all their talk, things remain strikingly the same. Republicans and Democrats bicker, pick and fight over trivial pursuits stirred up and entertained by the media instead of addressing real concerns. The few candidates that have proven themselves immune to the ploys of mediocre news pundits are effectively ignored and ultimately drop out.

So how is it that despite such pressing and colorful issues, the presidential race is allowed to boil down to racial and gender-based taglines for the Democrats? Why can’t they leave the dissension amongst the ranks to the Republicans who now find themselves split between distancing themselves from Bush while staying in step with his agenda? Why is it that the one candidate who chose to downplay personal attacks has now given up his run for the presidency?

What change do we truly have to look forward to with another Clinton in office which would cement 24 years of a Bush/Clinton era? The answer to these questions will be the most reliable measure of the potential to change. The answer to these questions will be the measure of a man’s (or woman’s) worth and willingness to lead a country away from its current course of destruction and into a new direction. Yet, to quote an old adage: The more things change, the more they remain the same.

The Rainbow Coalition of the Willing

With the stakes of Super Tuesday set,
We’re capable of eluding a doomsday threat.
A threat that could bring a nation faced
with looming debt to its knees.
But it’s not the faith of latter day noonday sects
That prostrates us to radical soothsayers’ text…
Rather, it’s based in getting the room sprayed,
swept and elephant free.

For the past 8 years, there’s been a hell of a breeze
Coming from the stench of elephant dung debris.
Rolling of less elegant tongues with ease,
we’re sick of the bull they’ve fed us!
The Republican’s repugnant catastrophes
Have the White House smellin’ like pungent menageries…
These cats have to leave! –
our limit with wolves has left us fed up!!!

Having covered our eyes with
thick wool and led us to slaughter,
We’re sick of ‘elected’ officials crying wolf
to unsettle our daughters.
Such negligible honor should never
have led the free world.
Yet from the depths of such indelible dishonor
We’ve leapt into incredible harbors
Dredged from tears wept and harbored
from this legacy unfurled.

With the white elephant in the room addressed
It’s time for the delegates to
the left to groom and prep.
Who’s next – what advocate for change
will remain the same?!!
What hope I had for them to stick to the issues
Was quickly dampened by stony jabs
and sticks that bruise sinew…
As decent bones have split in two
from feuds and name blame games.

This is how we can tell if trading
guards will encamp change –
Just look at the exchanged
response in their campaigns.
They rubber stamp change for a
chance to get their face on a dime.
That’s loose change – I know the jingle when I hear it!
Their whole mood will change –
it’s the same gringo spirit…
Whether Negro or honey dearest,
they’ll say what it takes for face time.

Yeah, I’m a pessimistic cynic at this point.
Yet and still, I can’t let the rest
of the Senate appoint this joint.
They will hear my opinion voiced –
even though my man Edwards backed it out.
Even though the primary colors
of each gang’s member have blended,
Even as cutthroat runs and displaced
tempers have left me winded…
I will vote the winning ticket –
as its net worth will be cashed in
as I cast out my doubt.

So as true colors emerge
in this presidential race,
And candidates let the press continue
to set its pace –
I’ll just settle my angst in a different territory.
Forget a president – my mind’s fixed on Kingship rule.
Forget a quest for jested men –
I’ll not swing left or right for wing-tipped fools…
Only His Will and Testament will do –
all else is insignificant and errantly heirless glory.

© 2008 Reggie Legend
Steel Waters, Inc.
reggielegend@hotmail.com

Critical Mass Exodus: by Reggie Legend

Written by: on Feb 04 | writing showcase, Just thinking... | No Comments »

I’ve never been the one to follow the crowd. The basic principle behind my choice is simple: if I see a group of folks doing something, I force myself to stop, look and decide if what the bulk of folks is doing aligns with my own mindset. More often than not however, my mindset will automatically oppose whatever I see the majority doing because of the groupthink policy of this day and age. It doesn’t matter to me what some marketing department’s demographic research says about me, companies can NOT make a product geared towards me based on mass attraction; I renounce and ‘appeal’ such logic.

The reason is that such logic dangerously categorizes a group of people and asserts homogeneous thinking. Such is the case with the candy wrapped rap that is quickly decaying the teeth and fattening the collective body of the Hip Hop community. While everyone is entitled to their opinion, what becomes of the worth of said opinion when it is based upon and influenced by the thoughts and actions of an entire assembly of mislead and misinformed people? We have become lyrical lemmings led to a deadly, self-propelled free fall that awaits us at the high point of Hip Hop’s mainstream popularity… and there’s no place else to go but down.

”Mass Appeal”

Unless delegated by God,
I can’t be led by mobs.
I’m not like the rest of the flock that blindly follows.
Feeling my way through Braille passage
By stealing away with groups to hail the masses
Simply seals my faith into a frail package that’s decidedly hollow.

Such methods of exodus plannin’
Leads to textbook and reckless abandon.
To be restless and stranded are its awful aims in the long term.
Though I reckon this madness
Is wretched and drastic…
Its essence is massive as it attracts traffic like moths to the flame
caught up in the cloth as it burns.

Compacted in drafted winds, it’s like fledgling child liars.
Rather, the pattern can spread like wildfire.
Grounded higher, the proper vantage brings all into focus.
So instead of drudging through drowning mires
Where sudden moves create crowd divers…
Be crowned and sired – move the crowd beyond being throngs of locusts.

If you want to gather crowds,
Organize it against what’s happenin’ now!
Don’t leave ‘em scamperin’ after bandwagons bound to be left behind!
Don’t feed ‘em reruns of empty rhetoric –
Don’t beat lead drums into empty crevices…
Don’t be a bum like emcees with no messages –let your destiny shine.

Be at the head as a lead guide.
Leave Red Seas 20,000 leagues behind.
Lean against the grain – seek and find your irreverent relevance!
Dare to show different strokes of genius.
Dare to lead indifferent folks to Jesus…
Evoke a provoking thesis lined with eloquent severance.

Don’t react to systemic stimulus –
Detach roots from insipid kinship.
Use the given wisdom sent from Him – reject groupthink fallacies.
Challenge what’s known with solid research.
Seek the chalice of thrones with a knowledge rebirth…
Acknowledge and reverse ghetto mindsets blindsided by hoodwinked mentalities.

Cause conflict! – contradict the dismal plight
Of unconsciousness that haunts the critical might
Of flocks the size of the Israelites – at least they had Aaron and Moses.
We’ve let our souls follow pitiful guides essentially
Because we’ve got role models who pivot their liability…
Which leads to abysmal strife and misery from plentiful errors chosen.

We’ve been called out to be taught different –
So fall out from dream walks into vision.
Like Stephen Hawking, exceed the limits of your surroundings.
Don’t let corporal forces coagulate and congeal you.
Push court ordered warrants for mass appeals through
Before such tactics kill you with the kindness of kindred crowding.

© 2008 Reggie Legend
Steel Waters, Inc.
reggielegend@hotmail.com

Election by Amadeo

Written by: on Feb 04 | Just thinking... | 2 Comments »

Mitt Romney

“ Johnny always alters his given name and refers to himself in the third person — for example, “J-Dog don’t play that” or “J-Dog wants to know wusssaappp.” It comforts me to know that my parlance has such broad appeal.”
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Free write: A letter from Britney to the paparazzi by Bassey Ikpi

Written by: on Jan 29 | writing showcase, Just thinking... | 2 Comments »

This is me broken
For months you’ve documented this spiral
Downward with flashbulbs and camera rolling
This is me broken
Same body you praised for hourglass
Now ridiculed as ticking time bomb
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Broke(n) Hearted by Jason Reynolds

Written by: on Jan 22 | writing showcase, Just thinking... | 1 Comment »

For those of us who have highly flammable pockets:
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The Trial by T.S. Hand

Written by: on Jan 16 | My Response To, writing showcase, Just thinking... | No Comments »

The Trial 

T.S. Hand

She gave monumentally bad head and it took him forever to come, though he eventually did gurgle out thick, desperate floods. To repeat, alarmingly bad head (Exhibit A). He considered this along with the fluffy blonde down on parts of her nape (Exhibit B) and stomach (Exhibit C), which ex facie suggested she had lied about her age. As he washed beneath his foreskin in the hotel sink it dawned on him that she was some father’s little princess, a fresh entry into the club scene with a fake ID and probably no more than 17 years under her belt. The realization swept over him like a sentence.

He wandered aimlessly about the eighth floor and felt touched by its symphony of lives behind numerous identical doors. He wondered how many behind those doors had been shanghaied into mouth-fucking a minor. He imagined the knocking of gavels and the swish-swish of orange-bootied inmate shoes.

He made his way to the lobby in a flurry of resolution. Being an adult—he ruminated as he walked into the hotel bar for the second time that night—means dealing with the consequences when you fuck up. He had fucked up (abysmally) and now he would atone. He scoped the bar for the burliest corn-fed Midwestern football fanatic he could find, hopefully one who exuded previous martial arts training. Approaching his target from behind, he slapped this blue-blooded ox of an Amerkan in the back of the head, hard, and quipped, “Look a’ this lil’ faggot.”

There was quick action, the kind that required tenfold longer to explain than to observe. At first, no one understood why the jumbled and leaking heap on the floor had scarcely thrown a punch, had actually only demanded more malicious manslaughter through clenched teeth with acerbic haranguing, (“Come on, you fucking terrorist!”) and had forthwith writhed on the black-checkered tile in a maudlin mess of whimpers and sinister sniggers.  

But this was all easily explainable—reasoned the bar patrons seriatim, after mulling it over and swishing it around in their pint glasses. After all, how often have we seen someone get a little brave, boastful, flammable? And how often have we seen a drunk ignite like a tinderbox and devolve into a beast?

And one by one, the stool-sitters and nut-munchers deliberated until their mind had dotted the “i”s and crossed the “t”s of the snafu’s unfolding, arriving finally at a satisfactory explanation they could take home to their wives or coworkers as proof, beyond a reasonable doubt, that they were “good men.”

But why,—and this singular fact, forgotten by most, continued to bother the blue-blooded ox accomplice until he would find his own atonement involving a ball-peen hammer, two underutilized fingers on his right hand and most of the knuckles on his left—why, in all the depraved, sick lunacies of the motherfucking free world, why had the instigator chomped down expectantly on two Amethyst Hotel matchbooks—like someone getting dental X-rays—just before the first punch described an arc that terminated at the sinewy part where his jaw met his ear?

10:51pm / Words by: Tracy Garraud

Written by: on Jan 16 | Just thinking... | 1 Comment »

As I sink into the squishy cushions of a cocoa-skinned sofa chair, my throat recovers from chai latte scaldings caused by the impatience of my greedy gut.

To my left, a dow-eyed Becky shimmies out a slew of nonsensical words to her eager-eared, rich-bitch counterpart. They notice the stare I don’t try to hide, but quickly return to their previous insipid ramblings.

Costumed in war hues and city dirt, I cross my legs and display a messy manicure over boyish hands. Overt femininity has never been a forte of mine, but I embrace the few specs of sex appeal I own and keep it moving.

10:51pm

A mellow jazz session is silenced by the sweepings of brooms and slidings of chairs. Size 0 jeans are pulled up against mannequin frames as my two Beckys walk their half full tummies to the door.

I bid adieu to the sweet aroma of steamed milk and evening joe.

Time to head home Mrs. Bucks, the Brooklyn air awaits me.